Loneliness (A Leaf Falls)

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            -e.e. cummings

 

I think back on the last four years and four months and sometimes this poem comes to mind.

Now I know it isn’t weakness to accept when this disease leaves me feeling emptied, lessened, weakened, excluded, alone. Repressing these feelings has always caught up with me. My sole wish upon a star is that I have gone into the underworld to liberate others from it and back into the light. 

Rock bottom is the completion point, the exit from the old paradigm and into the new. Don’t ever forget what you went through to get to where you are now. 

I wish I could show you, when you are lonely or in darkness, the astonishing light of your own being.